Tuesday, May 19, 2009

life...

So, it's been awhile...Lot's has happened and hasn't happened. First, no new relationship... kinda nice but lonely at the same time. Work has been bad. Hours have been cut therefore less money, therefore late on bills. I'm getting out of the muck but I'm sick of my job and the insecurity so i've applied at multiple places. I need to finish school but don't want to do what i'm doing anymore ha ha so... this is life. Lonely, poor, and not content with my career aka 2nd house. Oh and I hate living at home. I miss having my own apartment. So in the fall I want to move out again ha ha but I need money... are there any rich, single, goodlooking, honest, funny, and faithful men out there still? Ha ha.... yeah. Well, that concludes my venting session...

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Oh Happy Day

Ok so nothing of great importance has happend today... I just want to stop venting and be HAPPY on here!! I don't want everybody thinking i'm a lost cause ha ha. So I went to school, then work, then the store, then vaccumed my car, then came home, and here I sit. How do people come up with stuff to write on here? ha ha i'm at loss for words. Oh... my other blog is very very far behind.... I'm slacking in the taking pictures department but I will catch up!! Um... my cute nephew and neice are here so I will chat later :) cio

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Why...

Why on earth would you ignore someone that you cared about for three months unless the obvious answer is the fact that you don't really care about them at all? So, remember the guy from Cedar who I hadn't talked to since mid Oct? The one that talked about marrying me because I was the only constant thing in his life. Well, I got an email from him today.... Saying that he was in Hawaii for a month and that's why he couldn't contact me... ok what about the other two months? I have him on facebook and he gets on almost everyday.... what stopped him from writing me before? Why write now? Why pretend like he cares? Why oh Why do I attract... lack for a better word only because I don't swear... Jerks? Just.... Why?

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Continuation

So... I went to dinner with the "letter" kid last night. This is rude, but I only did it cause I want to see if I get another letter. Spending more time with this kid I realized to an even deeper depth that I could never date him. He's still shorter than me, still has no personality, and still has the most annoying laugh known to man. Rude, but you have to be picky in this area ha ha ok so I go pick him up cause I had plans for later on in the evening with a hunk of a man by the name of Dave.
Dinner, was at his friends house. As people started coming over, with their wifes and kids, I realized that he was the only one still single in his group of friends.... and it was awkward. But anyway, as I drove him home, he said, "So this is going to be the last time I see you for awhile. I'm going back to school and probably won't visit very often." He then awkwardly leaned sideways(in my car).... and I said, "That's too bad, good luck with school. It was nice meeting you." ha ha... was that rude?
Anyway... I have a ... meet... tonight that i'm very excited about. I met this kid named Aaron, he sold me my Scion acutally, and he's freakin awesome. He's engaged but his brother just got back from his mission a few months ago and Aaron wants to hook us up. If his brother is half as awesome as he is.... it will be, at the least, a great friendship.

On a side note.... Last year a couple of my good friends did a 365blog where they took a picture for every day of the year... Steve A then said that he did that so now I want to ... I'm going to be a few days late since it is already the 3rd but i'm going to start a new blog for that. Just ta let ya know :)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Why me?

Ok, for some unknown reason to be, I attract the... let's just say 'weirdo's'. Here is my newest dating story...
The week before Thanksgiving I went to a party with my friend from work. It was at her mother's house and it was all of her mother's cousins and what not. So we're playing cards, Pinochle to be specific, and they all decide that I should be hooked up with their sons because i'm alone, depressed, and single. Not really, I just think that's how i'm perceived because of the single factor. I'm acutally quite content with that situation right now. Anywho, so there are two ladies who have sons of my age. One is 24, gratuating from USU with an electrical engineer batchelors and already has a job held for him at HAFB. The second one is 21 and just returning from his mission.
So while we are there playing cards, they call the 24 year old, send him a picture of me, and set up a date for the friday night after thanksgiving. I was fine with this, i'm used to being put on the spot and being lined up with people I never intend on continuing to date. The reason being is this...
I have a theory when it comes to setting people up. A person meets another person who just happens to be single. They then think in their head who they know that is single. They then tell you that they want to set you up with someone. But here's the catch, it's not because they think the two of you will get along. Or that the two of you have a lot in common, no, no, no, it is mearly the fact that the both of you are single. Nothing has to be in common, only the fact that you both are lonley, depressed, and single. Only in Utah are you looked at in this light, if you are over the age of 19 for girls, 21 for boys, and are still single, you are percieved as suicidal. That is how i feel on this subject :)
Ok so back to the story. We have our date set up, we text in an attempt to get to know one another just a little bit. But texting is NOT the way, people are fake over texts, at least that's what I think. So Thanksgiving day arrives and he asks me to come meet him at his family gathering. I went for some odd reason on my way home from my family dinner. I met his whole family and said hi to the three women I met at the pinochle game. That was a very awkward moment... Meeting his whole family. You only do this if you are engaged so I had a lot of ideas as to what was going through everyones head ha ha... oh man. I was there for about an hour and then left to get to another family gathering.
We went on our date the next day. It was fun in a way but I felt like I was carrying the conversation most of the time. He was really quiet, shorter than me, and many other things. I decided that he would be fun as a friend but nothing more. He obviously was scared or uncomfortable and i'm sure after time, he would come out of his shell but I need a man that can hold his own in any situation. Also, a man taller than me, sorry.
The date ended, he texts me for a bit here and there and then invites me to a family Christmas party. I'm sorry, I had plans, but even if I didn't, once was enough for me. He then continues to text me and asks me this last friday for a date sat night, I once again had plans but offered to hang out another time. Hang out and a date are very different in the light that I look at it.
Later friday, I got a letter in the mail which I am now going to write for you to read.... Brace yourself.
~Mary:
By the world's biggest fluke I understand that you know so and so (I won't put names). Whoever introduced him to you, you seriously need to thank them. Since I know both of you, you longer and better, I'm not going to put any stress on you by telling you who I am, not yet anyway. One of the reasons I don't want to reveal myself is because I'm not sure if you two were just a one time thing or you're still in touch. If you're still in touch, take the time to get to know him better and his personality will eventually come out. He's really a top notch kid and I just wanted to let you know that, besides the fact that I thought this was a good thing for both of you. Enough for now, I'll just sit by and quietly find out what, if anything, is going down with you two and if I find out something is happening, I'll be back in touch. Are you intrigued?~
That was it. No return address, no signature, nothing. Who the heck in their right mind would write a letter like that?! If this person knows me like they say they do, they would know that it would drive me nuts to get this!!! Tell me who you are ya punk!! grrrrr!!! I can't tell you how mad I was while reading this. I can't figure out who would write it. I have a few ideas but no one that is stupid enough to do it. I thought maybe he wrote it, got a friend to do it, his mother. I even thought about his high school teacher who is in my parents ward. I have no idea and it bugs me!!! Why does crap like this happen to me so offen!!!!???? Why can't I just attract normal people!!!!???? Why can't I just find someone normal to date. Why!!!!!!??????
Just from reading my blog you've only seen one dating story. Since i'm a slacker when it comes to posting (i'm getting better), you don't know half the crap that i've dated. I will start to post more crappy dating stories so this ranting makes more sense but until then..... HELP?

Friday, December 19, 2008

Funny

Shrek, Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt were all having lunch together.
Shrek said, 'I have always thought that I'm the strongest man in the world,
but how can I be sure?'
Angelina Jolie agreed. 'I'm told I'm the most gorgeous of them all, but sometimes I wonder.
Brad Pitt said, 'I'm pretty sure I'm the sexiest man alive but I've never had it confirmed.'
They all decided that the best way to find out if their beliefs were true was to ask the famed talking 'mirror, mirror on the wall' to confirm for them whether Shrek was the strongest, Angelina Jolie was the most gorgeous and Brad Pitt was the sexiest. They agreed to meet again the next day for lunch to discuss their findings.
The next day Shrek walked up with a smile. 'Well, true. The mirror told me that I am the strongest man in the world.'
Brad Pitt perked up and said: 'And I know for sure that I'm the sexiest man alive.'
But Angelina Jolie lifted her sad, gorgeous face and said..
Who the heck is Mary Harkness?

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Grrrr

So do I not exist? Being good friends and talked about marriage for nearly six years and then you just stop talking to me? How the heck do you justify this? Do guys not have the descensie to at least tell you how they're feeling so you know whether or not to back off? Good Crap!! Ok... now that that is out... i've decided to vent for just a moment and if any of you have any hints or suggestions please, please, let me know.
So here's the begining. We met going into 10th grade. He was moving a town which is 5 hours drive away. We kept in touch via email. When he came to visit we would be "a thing". We kissed, hugged, and did whatever high school kids do when they are in like. So we stayed really good friends throughout the years. He goes on his mission, we email nearly every week. He comes home, I go down to visit. He's very stand offish which i understand, he'd only been home for one week. So we talk, I say goodbye, we say our "I love you's" and I drive back home.
I decided to let him be the first one to innitiate convo. Well, two months later and I still haven't heard from him. What the hell!!?? I don't get it. Six years and then nothing? No, "I don't want to be friends anymore."? No, "It's just not what I want in my life right now."? No nothing!! What am I suppossed to do with that? Today I finally just sent him an email saying, "hi, didn't think i was that forgettable but apparantly I am. how's life?"
Should I just forget about him? Should I ask him any specific questions? What about the friendship? Does that mean that I was just a safety blanket all of these years? Am I just his poor man's whoever? I don't get it!! sigh..... ok... I just needed to vent.